My ambition's to be last--
Without riches, without fame,
With no titles by my name,
No huge funeral when I've passed.
Jesus, Jesus must be first.
Then his finest saints come in;
Next, the ones who'd hardly win.
Then at last am I, the worst.
To be least within his gate--
In that bright and holy land
Where it's all as he has planned--
Is a high, exalted state.
To be last right here, right now,
Is a fine, a worthy thing.
It can make me dance and sing.
To be last--but saved somehow.
And he sat down and called the twelve. And he said to them, “If anyone would be first, he must be last of all and servant of all.”
(Mark 9:35 ESV)
Does the attitude of this poem shock you? It's fine to aim at rewards in the life to come, though I don't see anywhere in the Bible that I should aim at having a reward that's greater than yours. What should shock us is all of the "Christian" talk that tells people to love themselves, to esteem themselves, to be confident in themselves, to win over others at any cost.